My therapist handed me an index card at the end of our session today with those letters written on it: FOMO. I couldn’t recalling seeing those letters together like that before but stared dumbly for a moment trying to figure it out and hoping I looked like I knew exactly what it meant. Alas, I didn’t and had to admit I was stumped.
Fear Of Missing Out. That’s what those letters mean. She was giving it to me to keep handy in plain sight to remind myself that I cannot possibly know everything. There is literally no way I can keep up on every single news story being pumped out each day, read every article I think will be helpful, comment on every single facebook post I have something to say about, take some (perceived contributing) action every day, keep current on this new blog, finish reading books I have, AND also be with my family, keep my house semi-clean, cook meals for said family, keep my home running smoothly, and have recreational time. All without going completely insane! It just cannot be done!
I need those kinds of reminders often but even with them I struggle mightily with feelings of inadequacy, thoughts that I’m not doing “enough”, and internal struggles to hold it all together. I don’t think that’s ever been more present than at this point in time. I am constantly in crisis mode lately even while trying my hardest to think of this fight as a “marathon” not a “sprint”. There’s apparently a real revolutionary living inside me that craves to be let loose on the world! But, I must try to “hold my feelings lightly” as my most awesome therapist is wont to say. It’s ok to have these feelings and to just let them be. I don’t have to act on or ruminate about them. I just have to accept that they are there and continue forward.
I’m assuming that I am not alone in this boat. I know many people right now are struggling with the desire to “do something”, “do more”, or affect change while also trying to juggle their “real” lives. I just wanted to share my experience and tell all you ladies, and hopefully gents too, that you are not alone. I think if we all keep thinking long-term, seeing this as a marathon, and get and stayed organized with other like-minded people, we can beat this and not lose our minds. We must think of this as a time of change, not simply a moment of action. Being too complacent or hands-off in our approach to government and civic issues is one thing that got us where we are right now. Whatever we are doing now will have to continue on in the future, albeit at a hopefully less fevered intensity. I look forward to meeting new people, discovering what skills I might be able to contribute to the cause, and showing the ignorant bullies of this nation that they cannot so easily take our democracy or our sanity!
Now if you’ll excuse me I’m going to step away from the computer and craft till my hearts content ❤